Friday, April 07, 2006

dry

Today I decided to give up on someone I considered to be my friend.

Nothing MAJOR has happened, rather something small. But it comes on top of a series of little actions and words (or lack thereof) that made me feel, in the past weeks at least, as if I was working too much and friend too little to keep this friendship going.
It's true it wasn't just any other friendship - me and friend have history - and thus it required more efforts than the average but since friend had claimed an intention to make it work I assumed (wow, how could I?) friend meant what friend said.

This morning again friend upset me. I cried a lot this year and even though I'm better and I'm past that stage, I can still sob: I got to the point where I just sob and have no tears to cry. Just like dry humping and dry cleaning, dry crying is no fun.

Friend I decided to give up on: I really care and I really tried, even against people's advice. You said you don't see how you weren't a friend in the past few weeks - either you're lying or you're so out of touch with what was our friendship that you honestly don't see.

If on the other hand there is something I don't get, something blatantly obvious for you, please explain, make me understand.

A friend isn't only she or he who answers your phone calls. That's not being a friend, that's being polite.

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